If I was feeling like a failure before, it’s nothing compared to what I’m feeling right now.
I really wanted this book published on Ian’s birthday.
But I also what something I’m happy with — something he’d be proud of me for. It’d be a gift to him. It keeps going around in my head.
So I’ll put off publishing so I can have something I feel good about.
But man, does it suck not being able to give my son the gift of my first book being published on what would’ve been his day.
I guess the saying “Can’t have your cake and eat it too” is true. Still sucks though.